The scripture for today has us read and ponder Jesus at table with His disciples. During the meal we hear Jesus say, “Amen, I say to you, one of you will betray me.” It is impetuous Peter who asks John to find out from Jesus who this might be. Jesus answered, “It is the one to whom I hand the morsel after I have dipped it. So he dipped the morsel and took it and handed it to Judas, son of Simon the Iscariot. After Judas took the morsel, Satan entered him. So Jesus said to him, “What you are going to do, do quickly.” Now none of those reclining at table realized why he said this to him. Some thought that since Judas kept the money bag, Jesus had told him, “Buy what we need for the feast, or to give something to the poor.” So Judas took the morsel and left at once. And it was night. John 13:21-33
How easy it is for us in recovery to understand fully what it is like to have Satan enter into our lives, subverting everything that is good and wholesome. And how we understand “and it was night.” Physical darkness is one thing but spiritual darkness is quite another. We’ve lived in this night and we floundered around, some of us for a long period of time. Now, only now, do we realize that we were never abandoned by God. I quote below what Sr. Katherine Howard, O.S.B., has to say about this.
“Jesus does not turn away. He places all His trust in God as He compassionately embraces His dread and courageously accepts life and others as they are in this moment. Jesus’ transforming Spirit embraces us, His human sisters and brothers, sinners all. Divine Love in Christ accepts us as we are, at our worst and at our best. Jesus, the Christ, lives, rejoices, suffers, dies and rises in our lives as they really are.”
These thoughts offered by Brother Richard Hittle, S.J., a grateful 1980 graduate of Guest House and an employee since 2004.